You Know?

Well, betrayal from people who you have not done anything but help and treat them good and a betrayal from someone who is very close to you who you have given your time, money, energy, trust; basically your life... deeply HURTS!

But it taught me something in return. I've realized a lot of things especially in giving my all in exchange of my own sacrifices. I thought I could paved someone's path by giving them the least resistance in life. Looking back to the one's I have provided well, they did not turned out good. They tend to make self serving stupid decisions thinking that somebody is always there to fix it for them. And worst part of it is that they can just easily turn their back on you by doing and saying things they don't have any idea, without any regard or whatsoever on how it may feel. I am strong that people around me including my loved ones thought I am insensitive. Well, it just happen that I have a high tolerance toward pain whether it is physical, emotional and mental. That's why I have always survived under many circumstances so far.

I will probably be changing my management towards my loved ones from now on. I won't be lenient as I used to. Providing always and giving them everything that they need without working hard for it, thinking that they will grow up to be successful and productive individuals is totally wrong. It took me a while to figure that out. I will now start to draw a line between teaching someone to fish rather than keep giving them the fish. Giving always did not help them and it did not help me either. They don't know the difference between right or wrong because they did not experience that much hardships that will give them a good background to make sure they'll do things right. Well, it's not the end of my world now that I got burned. No matter how hurt and mad I am. I am still in control. Even though we really don't have a control of our life but I would like to think that I have to keep life organized. Keeping my humility is still the best thing to do and keeping my enemies close and kill them with kindness will be maintained. Hope it works! LOL! or else I will be so pissed again. he he!